We Aren't Supposed To Live Like This
Evil drains you because you're not a terrible f*cking person.
Welcome to Cheaper Than Therapy, a newsletter by Shani Silver.
Do I have a debilitating lack of motivation, or does everything seem pointless in light of the fact that the world’s worst people keep winning? I hate feeling helpless regarding any one situation but 50 at the same time? That’s somethin’. At first I thought my all-consuming apathy was a result of perimenopause—because what isn’t—but I don’t think the way I feel is a result of the natural aging process. I think this comes from a very unnatural triumph of evil over literally fucking everything, with seemingly no end to how much they’ll achieve on their way to inflating billionaires, protecting criminals, and demolishing normal people whose tax dollars fund it all. No biggie.
I won’t list the horrors here, because I know that would depress us all further and quite frankly I can’t keep track. At the beginning of 2025 I created a spreadsheet to collect all the “unprecedented events” throughout the year and you can tell I kind of just gave up in May. I don’t want to do anything, and I mean anything. The fire that used to drive me to accomplish things with my life is little more than a confusing memory now, because what is the point? It’s so hard to go about the life that keeps you safe when the safety of others is being continuously stripped. It’s impossible to earn the money that keeps you housed and fed when no matter how much you earn, your government will just take more and more of it and use it for anything other than its purpose. This country runs a concentration camp how the fuck are we supposed to clock in right now?